I woke up daily with scars and bruises.
My head aching and my heartbeat racing.
I felt pain each day,
and with so much frustration I pulled my hair and became bald with spots of blood.
Each day I was pulled from the bath tub with cuts on my wrist which was an attempt to end the pain .
I went to different doctors and they couldn’t identify the cause.
I went to different psychiatrists and they tied me up in isolation.
And still I was unwell.
And so I went to a priest.
He welcomed me in and told me I was possessed.
He locked me in a dark room,
Chanted words and whipped me daily.
He poured water on me,
and fed me through a hole.
And one day,
he strapped me to a chair in preparation for my exorcism.
He began to chant words,
and I could feel my body levitating,
my bones twisting,
my back arching,
and my eyes bleeding,
as the parasite struggled to remain in me.
And then the priest held up a sign towards me.
I could feel my heart ripping, my lungs collapsing and my bones cracking.
And he calls out its name, as in every exorcism,
With the impact of its dispel I was thrown to a corner of the room and thereafter I was free.
Weeks passed and my life was a little pleasant.
The wounds on my wrist had healed.
My heartbeat was normal.
But my head was still aching.
So I went to the priest to show gratitude for what he had done.
But he was locked up in isolation.
What was dispelled from me,
And all of a sudden, my eyes opened.
I saw deeper cuts on my wrist,
scars all over my body,
my heart beating faster,
my head aching,
and I began to limp.
I fainted as a result of the shock;
My “Mind” was the priest.
And so what was dispelled from my body,
moved up to my mind and made itself a permanent resident,
taking total control of my body and soul.
Till this day,
I find myself on the floor,
shivering in pain because of this parasite.
Feeling it feed off me till all the flesh on my bone is gone
So I walk around with the pain,
with no hope,
to be free from Love.